I will admit, I am a 29 year old who is single and is not using my degree at the moment! Sadly enough, there are people who will hear that and automatically judge me. Whether it is that I just finished a masters degree and I am starting on a second one, or the fact that I am 29 and not married that people will give me labels such as "loser", "damaged goods", "incompetent", or "commitment-phobe". Strangely enough, I look around at my fellow 20-30 somethings that are in the same boat as myself and I can't help but wonder if these people are on to something. But then again, I laugh about it and realize that it is not a big deal.
"Not a big deal??? What do you mean?!" Most would respond. When thinking about my job situation, I will eventually get into a job that is in line with my calling, but it may not be quite yet. I am entering the worst job market in a very long time, and you cannot expect me to just get a job. Trust me, I have met many people who did not deserve the job that they have, but they are currently occupying that job and it does more harm than good. It has been frustrating watching it, especially when I realize that I could be getting a pay check to do their job and do a better job (no one you would know, don't worry!). But I realize that God may not want me in that negative situation. I have been offered jobs and I have turned those jobs down. Again, you probably think that I am crazy. But if you knew the details of the job and the track record of those who went before me in those jobs, you would see why I passed. I did not want to end up jaded while working a job that did not pay me and cut me off from my friends. So instead, I am applying across the US looking for a ministry position or somewhere God is calling me to.
Now, lets talk about that pesky biological clock thing. A lot of friends and relatives seem to wonder when I will get married. Thats when questions about my sanity, pickiness, or commitment issues come up (I am sane, I have healthy standards and am okay with commitment). I have talked at length about this back in February ( http://jasonchrista.blogspot.com/2011/02/love-differently.html ) if you want to read it, but I won't revisit it. In general though, I get a lot of flack for being on the wrong side of twenty and single. What I find frequently is that even though I may be getting older, it is not that I have any serious life altering problems. In fact, I am finding that most of the people that it did not work out with was for the best because it would have made me miserable. I would much rather be content and single than married and miserable. In general, I do not hear about too many happy marriages. So that is why I am content to wait.
In closing, I would like to encourage you if you are in the same boat as me. We don't always know what God is up to, but I find that sometimes not being in a situation is better than being in a horribly bad one. What I find is that even though Abraham was promised a nation, he never saw the nation. He just saw Isaac. He was able to see God's promise, just not in full bloom. So maybe God has us in a place where we are antsy and trying to be patient, but we are safe. Now is just the time to pray that his will comes sooner rather than later! =)
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